I'm not a coffee drinker, but I've developed an addiction to chai tea lattes from Starbucks. Aside from the fact that they're like a sweet and spicy cup of hot chocolate for grown-ups, the combination of caffeine and sugar wakes me up when I need it and/or gets rid of the headaches I wake up with sometimes. I suspect the headaches come from a lack of sleep, among other things.
Normally, nighttime is my time to write. Sometimes I sneak in some writing when I get home from work, either just before or just after I make and eat dinner. Most of the time, I write after my son goes to bed. I stay up until 11 p.m. or so and still wake up at 4:20 a.m. to go to the gym. That's the only time I can go, since I work all day, come home and take care of my husband and kid, and write at night.
But, lately, I've been really sleepy. I'll spend a half hour dozing at the computer, staring at the same paragraph, before I decide to go to bed early. And then, in the morning, I convince myself that my third chai latte this week won't hurt anything. (And vow that next time I'll get it with nonfat milk and skip the cranberry orange scone.)
I don't know what to do. I can't quit my day job, or stop caring for my kid, or ignore the chores that need to get done, or forego grocery shopping. (God, I'd hate to see what my husband would bring home.) I could cut out the gym or my writing, but I see both of those as essentials. As much as I hate exercising, my body needs it. It's my brain that needs the writing. *Sigh* Maybe I just need a vacation.
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